I am a terrified monster, I am scared of my own shadow
I am lost in a sea where all else matters
I believe in my superfluous nightmares, I scream in horror, a soul screeching ear bleeding terror.

I creased the day that she'd finally love me, I begged for her in the utmost soul diminishing way

I cried for nights waiting for you, mercy have your soul upon me

I am just a weak willed man.

You rang my door, and you had open arms
You came to me, and told me "I'd love to be your girl"
You filled my heart with joy, but who are you to tell me you're not perfect?
You spent your days sitting in a coffin, words of suffocation and hatred

You turned putrid in mind, but I was prepared to repair that and paint you proud.

We came together in an empty room, you held my hand and I felt yours
We shared our moments, breathing, crying, and fleeing each other too.
We ran to the deepest corners, but we always wound up as two.
We fell together, in perfect harmony, and we believed we were in love.
We are in love. We are soulmate's. We are to become one.

I ask you for forgiveness not because I wronged you, again. I ask you forgiveness because I don't always treat you the way a real man should. Sometimes I put my fears ahead of myself, I put them infront of you and I let them control the wheel.

I don't know what I'm writing. I'm just begging for you to please lose the feeling of hatred for yourself. Please forgive me for my words. Please forgive me for how I reacted. Please forgive me for being me.